Have there been days in your life when you did not want to get out of bed. Not because you were lazy, but because you did not have the motivation to do so. You feel like the weight of the entire world is crushing you down and there’s nothing you can do about it. So you just lie there, thinking is it all worth it?
You start contemplating your place in this world, thoughts like the world would still go on enter your mind. And the worst part is that you agree with them. There are voices in your head that push you deeper into a spiral of self-loathing.
There comes a point in your life when you feel like its not worth it at all, the daily suffering, the pain but most importantly the nothingness of it all. The feeling that nothing matters at all, and that’s when you know that you’ve reached rock bottom. At this point you want to give up but its important to remember that now the only direction you can go is up. Its important to keep fighting the hardest at this point.
Sure, you’ll have moments where you see no way and the only option is to end it all. Be strong in the moments you want to be weak. It’ll take time but you’ll finally get to a place where the world appears a little more brighter and a little less sad. There will be people who’ll help you get there. All you need to do is remember that you are important, you are needed and that you matter.
‘ I was here, I exist. I’m alive because I bleed’- Maggie Stiefvater